Dispatches from a Porch Swing

Dispatches from a Porch Swing

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Jen Deaderick
Jul 07, 2021
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I woke up this morning already deep in a funk. Whatever dream I’d been having sent me into a well of self-loathing. It was the usual, the dread I’ve had for decades, the one that usually signaled that I was about to get my period: no man will ever really want to be with me, I’ll be alone forever, everyone else gets to have a partner and I don’t.

I used t…

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